Torn.

So I kinda have a crush on this guy. Correction. I had a crush on this guy. Okay so what happened was there's this girl who I'm becoming friends with and I asked her who she liked. It's so fucking predictable that I don't even need to say it. We like the same guy. SO I told him, got in physical fight with her and now he and I are dating....just kidding. Anyone who knows me well enough knows that I was just kidding. She didn't know I liked him, I just told her I don't have a crush. She also told me she's liked him for three years. Call me ridiculous but if she's liked him for three years, she can have him. I'm not gonna fight her over this. I'm sorry but ruining a friendship over a relationship with a guy that can last three months AT THE MOST is insane. I give up, I'm not gonna chase him around if she's been at it for three years. When I was six, I met my best friend. His name isn't important anyways, we're still best friends today and I had the misfortune of liking him when I was younger. When I was 10, he went to middle school and I was still in elementary(I liked him for about four years). He was also a year older than me. Anyways, after that, I moved. The distance tears me apart. I never knew what a broken heart felt like until I found my self crying myself to sleep over it five years later.  Basically, what I'm trying to say is, when you like someone for a long amount of time, it's insanely sucky to get your heart smashed. I know that from experience. Getting your heart smashed and being backstabbed by a friend is even worse. Thankfully, I don't know that from experience.