Things I'll never say

Ever had a moments where you wanted to say something but didn't?
Here's everything I've ever wanted to say to every guy who was ever important in my life. Most of these are from my diary the ones that aren't don't have dates


"******, I'm normally a very shy, socially awkward girl. I can't even begin to fathom the unimaginable ridicule I will get from our mutual friends. That being said, I think you're different than any other guy I've met because I cant seem to figure you out. One minute, I want to stop and tell you that I might have a small crush on you and the next, I want to punch you in the face. You piss me off more than any guy I've ever met and I have no idea how I feel about you, and I don't think I ever have." - Letter to "Swift"




"December 2009 - I thought you were perfect.
June 2010- I thought you were cute.
December 2010- I thought you were the biggest asshole I've ever met, and besides your looks, you have no redeemable qualities.
January 2011- I couldn't believe I used to  like you
February 2011- I realized that I am truly over you in every way
July 2011-  When I met you, I thought I knew everything. BACK THEN, I thought smoking pot and casual sex were okay. BACK THEN, I thought getting a 2.3 GPA was okay. BACK THEN, I thought I wanted to be your girlfriend, and worst of all, I thought I had a chance with you. NOW, I know I don't know everything, fuck, I'm just learning to drive. NOW, I know narcotics and casual sex are not okay. NOW, I'm a 4.0 student. NOW, I don't want anything to do with you, and seeing that your life has turned to absolute shit, I'd consider the playing field level. At fourteen I thought I knew everything, and today I just got a harsh wake-up call that reminded me that when I was fourteen, I DIDN'T KNOW SHIT. When I was fourteen, I was fucking stupid...mostly because I was crushing on you." - From my diary July 23rd 2011




"It's like every time I see him, he gets exponentially hotter. Like if he pinned me against the wall and tried to make out with me, I wouldn't do much to stop him."


"Sometimes I have dreams/ nightmares of us making out. And HE ALWAYS SUCKS AT KISSING!"


"Things are pretty great, like I'd say we're friends, kind of ish and I don't wanna make this awkward or whatever but I had a nightmare last night...I'd rather not go into details so I'll just say it in two words: We fucked. And I know you're probably wondering so I'll just answer the question you're thinking. Yes, you were good."


"Hey. Lately I've been thinking a lot about us. I know you don't really see you and I as an "us" but a long time ago, I did. Since I'm being completely honest, I wanna tell you that I walked to the mall through the freezing April snow to see my friends so they could hold me while I cried over you so I think you owe me one. If on my 21st birthday I end up on your doorstep, drunk out of my mind, talking about how I had a crush on you when I was 14, be a gentleman and offer me a ride home. Remember, you owe it to me." - My diary April 9th 2011


"I don't think he knew, but I'm pretty sure his girlfriend had it figured out. I bet they fought about it on the way home, gosh I hope I didn't break them up...but if I did, I'd be more than willing to be his rebound."


"I love you, I always have."


Oh yeah and most of these are from conversations with friends


Question time! What was your most pathetic crush ever? So...I guess I used to like a guy and he totally didn't deserve me...'CAUSE I'M SO MUCH COOLER(: