DRAMA!

Okay so I don't know how to start this. There's this guy. Actually there's two guys.
So I guess I'll start off with my pathetic crush on this guy in my physics class. It's seriously pathetic. My friend and I are having a contest to see who can say more words to their crush. The score? Him:86 Me: 54
I kinda creep his facebook page...it's sad, I know but anyways it's like everything I find out about him, makes me like him even more. Seriously like we have SO much in common. He's like the guy version of me.
1. He likes Slayer, Dream Theater and Megadeath
2. He uses "That's what she said!" more than I do (I didn't even know that was possible but I guess it is)
3. He's into MMA and UFC etc
4. He's cute as hell (Hi, if you're reading this right now, stop.)
5. (I'm writing this just because I can) according to B, he has " HE HAS GORGEOUS SHOULDER BLADES" 
So yeah. I've said like 54 words to him. I'm seriously impressed with myself. Because I am so shy it's ridiculous. I'd tell you what I've said, but it's just depressing. Like not even interesting. I actually said Hi once but that doesn't matter because well... he didn't hear it!


ANYWAYS there's this guy named Kevin(Well Kevin isn't his real name)
So I'm starting to get kinda freaked out. At first, yes I liked him...a little but he's just WAY too into me. On Thursday, he asked me if I wanted to hang out I said yes so we hung out at my place(Nothing happened for those of you who were wondering) On Friday he asked me if I wanted to go to a game with him again, I said yes. So we hung out on Friday  and he also asked me  out. And I said "Maybe" For these reasons :
1. It was way too soon. I don't know him well enough to date him! I mean being friends with someone before you go out with them isn't too much to ask for...is it? I mean I'm not saying I wanna know every dirty little secret but I do want to get to know him better like his personality and what not. He makes a lot of comments on my looks which worries me a ton. I don't mind if a guy calls me hot or sexy but he doesn't even know me that well. I just think I need to get to know him better.


2. The situation is complicated...very complicated. 


3. I'm still really into the guy in my Physics class. Because in all seriousness, have you seen his shoulder blades? Yeah I didn't think so. You haven't seen how hot he is so don't judge. Like seriously we'd be so good together, it makes me wanna vomit.


4. Kevin's kinda creeping me out. So we hung out on Thursday, and Friday and my birthday party was on Saturday so we hung out then too and he texted me about two hours ago and asked if I wanted to hang out again. DUDE I need a break. I can spend DAYS with my friends, but with a guy who's interested in dating me? HA! I can't spend that much time with him. I NEED space. I can be kind of a loner. I can also be VERY distant. There are times when I turn my phone off for weeks at a time and I need a guy who can deal with that. I can't have a guy who wants to spend every moment of every day with me. I don't want to be in a relationship where he's telling me he loves me with in a week. I seem to have a problem attracting this type of guy. Honestly, I've had to block three numbers. I can't be with a clingy guy. Today my mother and I were at the mall and I was applying for jobs. Kevin decided to text me. I am being totally serious. This is what happened.


2:03 PM
Him: hey =)


2:05 PM
Him: Hey :)


2:06 PM
Him: Hey :)


If you're reading this and wondering if this is a red flag, well... uh...
Fuck yes it is!


On a scale from 1 to 10 (Ten being the most worrisome) this would rate at at least an 8.
DUDE give me a few minutes to reply! Sometimes my friends take ten minutes to reply! I don't send three hellos to them one and two minutes after I sent the first one! If they don't reply the first time I assume they're busy! My phone was on silent because I was applying for jobs! The three hellos weren't really creepy, it's just worrisome. If you can't wait two minutes for me to reply, we have a problem. Yeah. I am one of those people who needs tons of personal space. I LIKE SPENDING MY SUNDAYS ALONE. Let me make that bold. ALONE. I don't mind going on dates on a Friday night but I'm not gonna hang out with you every day I can. I'm just a really distant person and I need a guy who can deal with that. ALSO I don't want to worry about a guy hurting himself because I break up with him. And just an FYI I have the tendency to push clingy guys away.


SO yeah on this one...I'm leaning towards a no.


Question: Are you the type of person who needs TONS of space?


Summary:
There's this guy in my physics class that I have a crush on and he doesn't know I exist and then there's this guy named Kevin who I could like but he's getting wayy too into me


Last night I had enough of you
I put down the brakes
And I could tell you took it hard it was over your face
Since you're slippin and flippin
But here is the sitch
I signed up for a man
You are just a bitch

You should know
That I love you a lot
But I just can't date a dude with a vag